Well it’s been six hours, I haven’t stopped thinking about it and now I added like 6 things on top of it so I’m just laying in bed knowing that when I wake up tomorrow I’m going to have a breakdown realizing everything I contaminated and Dylan won’t be home to help me. Also I just read a comment on tik tok about ocd and he said “I have no empathy for people like this, they just have a character flaw” and I’m like yep totally just a character flaw that I can’t control and has taken 12 years of my life already lol… exactly what my ex would say to me.