Well I made Dylan clean everything so that’s done with lol. Anyway I’ve been thinking about how a lot of people know I have ocd but I still pretend I don’t when I’m around other people. If I or someone else touches something dirty and it can’t immediately be fixed I just pretend it didn’t happen and even play it off if someone says something but internally I’m literally screaming. I will spend the next several hours replaying what else I touched afterwards or what they touched so I know what to clean after. One time my friend touched something that was on the ground inside the gas station, then when we went home I basically followed her around and cleaned whatever she touched without her knowing until she washed her hands. I don’t like inconveniencing anyone else for my disorder so I’d rather just live with the pain until they are gone or until I’m no longer in public. One thing I notice is that when this happens I tend to like open my eyes wider because I’m straining the muscles in my face trying not to react. It’s like physically painful to not complete my compulsions.
Inside Contamination Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder 